Over the past few years, Billie Eilish has highlighted the problems she has faced growing up within the highlight, from body dysmorphia and shaming to being sexualised online.
Now, in a latest interview for Vanity Fair – shot by former Dazed 100er Quil Lemons – the singer has opened up further about her “horrible body relationship” that caused her to self-harm. “The explanation I used to chop myself was due to my body,” she says. “To be quite honest with you, I only began wearing baggy clothes due to my body.”
Elsewhere, Eilish talks about taking food plan pills when her relationship together with her body was at its worst. “I wasn’t really eating. I used to be, like, ravenous myself,” she explains. “I remember taking a pill that told me that it could make me reduce weight and it only made me pee the bed – after I was 12.”
While she is in a significantly better place now, she explains that her fame exacerbated the situation, with trolls commenting on her body and her alternative of baggy fit clothing. “I believed that I can be the just one coping with my hatred for my body, but I assume the web also hates my body. In order that’s great.”
Read the total interview here or our profile on the singer from the spring/summer 2020 issue.